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I suck. I haven't been sticking to plan. I eat after 7, but at the same time I don't want my metabolism to shut down post workout. The best way to keep burning calories and fat is to burn them at the gym and eat just enough to fuel yourself and those workouts.

So today I had:
some grapes, coffee with soy milk and splenda, tostitos (yummy) mushrooms and salsa with guac ( 100 calories pre portioned!! )

100 calorie klondike bar

before the gym I had a packet of tuna (70cals) an egg white omelette (2 egg whites 15 cals each) with 1/4 of an oz of cheese ( if that ) and salsa which is like nothing.

I had half a luna bar and then the other half right before practice

I did cardio for about 43 minutes then I had practice, which consisted of abs, a bit of movement and a little more movement for 2 hours (nothing really intense)

When I got home I had a cigarette, then 2 pickle spears and some low cal hot cocoa (75 calories total, maybe ? )

I'm laying in bed with a rumble in my tummy telling me I'm not full which means the metabolism is going and I'm on my way.

I've found that when I do things right, and don't binge at night, it's so much easier to stay on track the next day. My stomach is small and a yogurt or a cup of food is just enough to feel satiated. I also have said "hell no" to gluten and it really makes all the difference. Bad carbs make my life hell.

I will weigh in tomorrow morning. I don't expect it to be good. I'd be ok with 138, and hopefully 135 by saturday morning, then 132 Monday morning and into the 120's by the following weekend. The goal is around 123 for halloween, and there I'll stay maybe dropping to 120, to me my body is pretty much perfect there. 115 would be ideal but impossible to maintain.

As long as I don't binge and I keep working out, I should be ok...

My secret weapons are cigarettes ( only after a workout max 2 a night) diet coke (duh) grapes (full of fiber, natures candy and three calories per delicious orb) baby carrots (again fiber) no sugar added bread and butter pickles ( crunch, flavor, sweetness, perfect for drunk nights ) SF jello (duh) and last but not least, pumpkin !! (140 calories a can, with splenda and cinnamon, so filled, full of nutrients and tastes soo good!!!!!!! )

I'm a huge snacker so this is perfect for me. A little bit every couple of hours and I stay below 1000 calories, am fueled for workouts and able to focus on my classes ( which are really hard, hi I'm pre-med)

Pray I'm not above 138 tomorrow.